Love Is Fearless

I'm going to write you a letter. A letter of what is up with my brain and heart. I'm going to write you this letter and keep it in a safe place where no one will find it. June 2014 I will send you this letter. When you read it, I'll be in New York City. I'll be living the dream while eating a cookies n cream ice cream cone on the corner of Broadway and 5th. You'll call me and tell me that you're coming to see me. And I'll let you.

 You'll come with questions and confusion and anger. And when you do, I'll be ready. 

I'll be ready to hear what you have to say. And then I'll be ready to hear myself tell you my side. I'll be ready to watch you, watch myself fall. Watch myself cry and be afraid of what you'd think. But even though I've been silent all these years, I'll be ready to fill in that whole. Fill it with joy. Even if you don't feel the same. But most of all, I'll be happy that I will have finally said it all. 

I've tripped and fallen for you ever since 4th grade. And you'll finally know. You may not agree with what I feel but at least I'll know that you know. And I'll be able to move on from you, if that's what you want. I'll be able to not be afraid to fall for someone else and think of you. I'll be free. I'll be happy.

So see you in June 2014, New York City, on the corner of Broadway and 5th. I'll buy you ice cream. And we'll be happy, and pinky swear to remain best friends for life. No matter what.

and this song goes with everything I'm feeling