Lost.

What would happen if I just ran away? Honestly what would happen? And I didn't tell anyone (friends) where I was going, only my family knew and I just left... THAT WOULD BE THE DAY.

Lately I've been thinking about life outside of utah, outside of all of this and I'm not going to lie it's been very, very tempting. Going out to work in other states... possibly other countries where there are more oppertunity.




I don't know what I'm saying....................................... I just need to not.. need to not be here anymore.

Have you ever had that feeling where you just want to get into bed and just sleep. Forever. And I don't mean like dying or anything but just sleep and sleep and sleep until you feel like it's time for you to finally wake. Until you feel like your reality is finally better than your dreams and hopes...now I'm rambling. I hate rambling.