Here's the deal.

So if you don't already know, I'm here in Australia with my brother. We're here to find a job and save up money for whatever it is that we're saving for. My brother has a job and has been working for about a month now, me on the other hand have not... I know. Kinda a blow. The situation is.. that if I don't find a job within a month so in September, I'll have to come back home. I want to say that being here has been for sure one of the best experiences of my life! Like I'm having a blast here and loving it. Pretty much livin the dream haha.. though it would be sad if I left.

I got to talk so my closes friends just now about whats been happening and such and can I just first say thank you to them. Thank. You. I know that without them, I would be for sure lost. They give great advice and I love it! There are certain things that are happening back at home in my house that aren't cool, that I just don't agree with and I don't want to be there. But the thing is, if I don't have the expenses to leave, find an apartment, then I just need to find a job  and do that. And I knew that was something that I needed to do once I did come home, but to hear it from my girlfriends was definite  a reassurance of what I needed to do if the time ever came.

I've been trying SO hard to find a job here and it's tough.. it's always tough looking for a job and to do it in another country is Really hard. I've been praying for help to find a job and just praying to have a positive attitude on things here but something that one of my friends said was that to instead of praying to find one, pray to see if I should stay.. that's good right? yeah. Being here has been so grand and the opportunity has been amazing. This adventure will for sure go down in the history of my life.. maybe it's time to end. Close this chapter and start writing a new one. Come home, work my BUTT off to find a good job back home, get my cna (which was a strange weird thing that I thought I should do), start getting my performing on track and make money so I can move out, and be so happy that I cry... oh and go to school.

I just need to remember all the good things in my life and get through all the bad toxic stuff. Which is easier said than done but anything's possible right? right.

Okay now I'm rambling but.. yeah. that's the plan. I basically can't thank God enough for the people who have been placed in my life, especially the ones who are current right at this moment. I'm so thankful. Truly.

xoxo cheers
okaybbbbbbbbbbyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;)