10.09.2012

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My brother decided he was going to go back home next week to see his best friend off on his mission... last night I found out that he is leaving for good.

I can't even explain the pain that I felt, it was ridiculous and I couldn't believe that at that moment I finally realized how much he meant to me.. Once he gets there he will have a doctors appointment, finish filling out the last of his mission papers and then sign, sealed, delivered. 

In a few weeks the big letter will come in and then that's it. Gone. Indescribable really... Woke up this morning with the BIGGEST bags under my eyes from crying. Of course I had to go to work today; cool.

So now I sit on my bed in the corner against the wall in shorts and a tank, thank goodness for ipods. Blocking out the world. 


Pretty much depressed.



Numb. 

2 comments:

  1. Everything will be OK! I promise :) Love you.

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  2. I felt the same way when Tanner left. But girl, I've learned to be grateful that we can love. Good for you that you can love your bro with all of your heart. What a great and precious thing; love. The thing that I've found most helpful is to just sit quietly, read my scriptures and let Him in. You can do this.

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