My Heart.

My Dear Chandler,

                   

                  You and I have known each other ever since elementary school. Those were the good ol days. Were were best friends. We still are. Everyone knew too. Our little gang of friends, you, and me. We all knew that I had something there for you.. I can't put it into words yet somehow I'm still able to say what I mean. I always look at that picture of me and you during that Spring Break. I think, " Does he know I still love him?" "Does he ever wonder?" Well I do. I loved you. I still do. They say that it's better to let the one you love be happy with someone else who can make them happy, even though you couldn't do the same. I'm happy for you. I'm happy you found someone. But for some reason it's not right. It's not. You got me down on my knees and in my mind I can see how perfect everthing could be. If I could change your mind, how would you want me? I always wonder when I hear a song that reminds me of you or when I lay in bed. I close my eyes and there you are.. you make it hard to see. Do you feel the same? If I haden't left... could there have been something? Could "We" have been? In your reality you love someone else. I wish my dreams would become my reality. That should be me holding your hand, that should be me making you laugh, that should be me walking with you on the Redondo Pier. What do you think when you read this? Does the way you look at me change? Do you think differently of me? My imperfections. My flaws. My soul. I give this to you and you may think "wrong timing" since your leaving. But for me this was the time. I had to. I had to let you know, let you FINALLY know how I have been feeling all these years. I'll write you. I'll cherrish every word we say to each other. You have bewitched me body and soul. I love you. I love you. I love you. Forever and always.

Loves Today, Tomorrow,

and beyond,

xoxo

                                                                     Victoria