yesturday, today, songs speaking to me, mind shouting at me, heart beating really fast, JESUS... odd..

Listen.

I don't know really how

I'm supposed to feel...

My mind is saying I don't love you

and my heart is I think saying the same thing

And I'm not really sure

how I feel about that..

Like okay listen.

I don't really think... or I'm not

really sure if the spirit has been with me...

because of what I've been going

through personally.. but I have been working on it

(lets just leave it at that aha..)

so.. umm I'm not sure when I say

"I don't love him, I don't love him, I don't love him"

like ALL day yesturday and ha this moring at like 9 was true or not..

but for some reason I think I kinda believe it.

Make sense?

So yeah... hmm.. weird....

but hey if mum says I can get on the plane

then HECK YEAH I'll come and see you off :)

okay? okay.

And you know what?
Maybe just being there for you.. being your friend,
just liking you as a wonderful pal..
is good enough.

WHY HAS IT TAKEN ME THIS LONG TO FIGURE OUT?!

p.s.- I'll always love you. Never. For.Get.